Secrets & Confessions

Nobody listens to me no more. :( I’m all sad and depressed. My life’s a mess right now, y’know?

I think I’m really ugly and so not hot or even sexy when I look at the mirror. People say I’m pretty or hot, but all I see is an ugly looking girl with a non-hot body with plain personality.

I promise myself that one day, I’ll escape from this MAD HOUSE. I will. Even if I said that I’ll stay, but NOT for long, mum :)

My dad, my mom and sister “love” to complain every single time of the day and it sickens me. And you wondered why I give you FUCKED UP facial expressions? I am like mentally abused. One of these days, I’ll go crazy and end up in that “happy” place. If you go on… I PROMISE you… You’ll regret it.

I don’t like my sister just because the fact that I’m younger than she is, she can treat me like a FUCKING SLAVE. I FUCKING HATE THIS. She’s like a whiny baby, just bigger and bitchy-er. I so wanna fucking hit her and teach her a lesson.

I fucking cry when I’m mad. It sucks when people see me, wiping my tears off. You think I wanna be seen like this??? HELL. NO. Please don’t make me mad. I don’t like it.

I hate my mum because she cheated on my dad and still am. I HATE HER. She made me to not tell my dad. I told my siblings. They don’t like her because of that fact too. Mum, when will you stop and realize that dad is a good person and you are being a bad wife, huh?

I hate EVERYONE in my life. Does that make me a goth? I don’t care. Screw my fucking life.

I give up on love. I know that people say that there’s that person who will be “THE ONE” but I have been lonely for my whole life and still am. If I can go through that, I can go through life, ALONE. Even if that means that I would never get married, I do not think I mind. As long as I am happy.

My inspiration is my beloved Aunt. I love you.

When I was at a very young age, I had an open mouth kissing with my cousin with tongues. My family doesn’t know this except my beloved sister I’m only close to and my close friends. It was my first kiss and I am NOT even allowed to kiss here, nor date and holding hands.